Gary's survivor story

Having few memories from before i was 14 years old, these clinical records from when i was about 8 years old gives a lot of insight into my life at that time. Also, the records were obtained from an investigation based on a few childhood memories that I always had, and validated their accuracy. Yet some questions remain unanswered. The Observatory Clinic was a mental health clinic that used the old Melbourne Astronomical Observatory buildings, and was closed in about 1978. I attended the clinic in 1975 and 1976. Location, Birdwood Drive, Domain, Melbourne, Australia.

I describe the memory loss from times before I was about 14 years old, that I attribute to getting wiped by ECT. However, I also have some memory loss due to trauma, and it complicates my recovery.

Which of ritual abuse and ECT has more effect on my life? Its hard to delineate their effects.

An overview of what I know of my life and what happened to me - ritual abuse, child sex trafficking, medically induced brain injury, lifelong disability. I grew up in Adelaide and Melbourne, Australia.

I describe how i explain ECT (electroshock). I compare the doctors who do ECT, as being like serial killers - because they permanently destroy lives.

What makes me different from other people, and explains my life, is the inability to hold an image of my life in my mind, and manifest my life from that image. I see this as caused by ECT brain injury.

The pattern of my life is that I keep letting go of things, people, places, lifestyles. I dont sustain attachments. I talk about the effect of this on my life and where it has led me. I talk about the controversial point of view of seeing bad things as good because they have a net positive outcome, and explain my view of it.