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i am at the wrong place, go figure high quality content on this channel only thelonious (car) cannot accept ag's lifestyle why for 90 seconds straight whatever america either pretends to be or used to be is at this antique shop i understand not wanting to let go but it really is the best thing one can do when holding onto it only hurts you or them it's time there's my mini julia roberts+natalie portman baby right there been very sad thinking about past relationships damn what is that in my teeth she has a pretty morbid sense of humor too there are some good crazy bitches n mostly bad crazy bitches the crazy bitch that doesn't know is way more popular in america you should applaud that i know that about myself damnit stop watching if you can't handle it alcohol n men are two things that ag is bad at denying negative aspects of your personality in order to secure a shitty relationship where you can use/abuse somebody is pretty sociopathic if you ask me medication doesn't help you process anything eventually that "anti-depressant" is gonna prove to you that you're still suicidal

the majority of society has voluntarily made itself so very stupid a lotta people don't understand how much of this culture they have chosen just fuckin sittin here, why can't people do this anymore listen to ag chirp chirp chirp getting bored in a relationship...CLASSIC ag sex is important for many people that exist (well technically none of us would exist w/out it so...) nobody has to have sex we kill off our species n make excuses the whole time we eat animals after they were tortured to death food in my teeth, damnity damn amy why is it a surprise that everyone is _______ THIS IS STILL HERE they have no choice, they must keep scrolling here a slot machine, there a slot machine, everywhere a... it was only a matter of time zoomers n boomers rhyme for a reason sad emoji w/ tears text from my mom...Jesus get here NOW my dad n i have this one thing in common our overall motto is essentially the same in relation to outside influence vermin if you don't comply ugly ass dudes now think that they're women drag queens used to be beautiful there needs to be a place for freedom of expression they pushed all that in the culture cos there's no longer a closet you could just admit that you're insecure knowing that you did it to yourself is the hardest thing faith has given me confidence, i've been thru way worse nothing identity-related will fill the void replace addiction w/ self-destructive obsession it's more of a problem w/ the sheep than it is the system cos w/out the sheep the system would never sustain itself yep normal women wanna chop their tits off i guess it is normal at this point

what a damn good bridge to jump off of that would be SUPER selfish to fuck up somebody's day THIS is the natchez trace (in case anybody wants to get a scenic view, make out w/ someone or kill themselves) i say imma come out here but i never do if i don't have a solid reason, it's super hard to motivate myself to do anything i say checkers is a hard head like me i owe this dog my life...this is a true story elevating dogs but not in a way that makes sense so much is done to rob us of our consciousness i love seeing people outside exercising (i used to bike everywhere) we as a society will rationalize all things stupid sheep for the slaughter. pigs. dogs. monkies. rats our "pets" trust their senses more than we do send these bitches to the pound! i had to go thru sumin terrible to get to sumin magnificent so nice of you, fairview rogan road, that fucking coward moved to texas this wasn't it. and we sit here for 20 more min i am one min early, that's crazy anytime i am early no one is around to witness this miracle *but GOD of course! damn that mustache i enjoy driving even tho i am bad at it i was thrown into this dumpsite it was the wrong place!

it was under this here canopy... throwing away psych meds was one of the best decisions i've ever made ugly ass towers everywhere why wouldn't you wanna set em on fire this former friend of mine used to live in that house n i've been fucked up over there A LOT (we went to high school together) i finally had mental clarity for the first time ever after smoking pot i made this decision at seventeen they're gonna twist it per usual nobody can argue what you actually said figure it out for yourself head doctors have the interest of the pharm. co. that's literally it ...and add another guinea pig to the long ass list stay that medicated zombie why don't cha west civ is wrong happiness comes from investing yourself in sumin worthwhile mental illness is way more complicated, you can't widdle it down w/ a simple list of symptoms whenever we rant about psych meds my anger "problems" really come forth self-medicating makes more sense cos at least you know what you're doing n why not suggesting that everyone get on drugs (but if so, make sure they're good ones that help you to understand your experience, not run away from it) your avg american is an internet troll you have one life n you fucked up, all you have to do is shift your perspective just a tad the suicide rate isn't higher cos they are apathetic i'm a homosexual man on the inside two fave dudes on the internet are an actual homosexual and then a kinda famous dude who gets accused of being a homosexual you can't control who likes you or doesn't like you, it's just a thing about art n about life in general this is a great bridge to jump off of, man

that's thelonious (mini cooper) my tire guy looks just like gogol bordello phone culture is due to homogenization if everyone is doing sumin detrimental to their well-being it's not really frowned upon it's way easier to have a drinking problem in a bar can you tell i have schizophrenia? the camera won't stop rockin back n forth smartphones are so boring, i don't get it if it was futile i wouldn't even make art if your life is shit, it is up to YOU to correct it you have one life n this _____ is what you do every day they use extreme terminology so that people dutifully take their meds people that complain about depression are fuckin pansies instant gratification doesn't make sense overall i'm doin this channel for MY freaks not for the general public women. homosexual men. "autistic" dudes that wanna have sex w/ me for reasons that i don't agree with they try to control you since they can't control themselves i'd write a book if i was motivated before i started doin comedy i was writing a screenplay about mental illness, this channel is essentially a living documentary one step on stage changed my life happy stuff never inspired comedy comedy is a defense so... boomer mentality everywhere boomers don't think rap is music, i mean most of it is crap but that doesn't make it any less of an art form beethoven had haters, i'm sure of it art should not be competitive, that's what capitalism is for twenty different ways to say the same shit i'll take em any way they come

i really oughta work @ waffle house restaurant work is the opposite of segregation man i am the worst racist in the world! working w/ people from different backgrounds will teach you so much i don't need to travel the world, i talk to people you don't have to like me or nuthin i ain't petty (for the most part) it's not my responsibility to correct people your interpretation is not the only one once it's out there in the world it's free to be misinterpreted narcissists never realize that they are exposing themselves attempting to look smart women are really dumb when it comes to their emotions you're lucky to know yourself the south gets such a bad rep but there ain't segregation down here the white race is too sensitive it's pretty easy to discern certain characteristics involving race n generation but society has been forever feminized n not in a nurturing way i have always paid attention to human behavior

where did they come from perhaps these geese live at lowe's if i hadn't had a flat tire today, i woulda never seen em it's easy to get cold when you're ninety lbs i don't believe in medication for a lotta reasons i distinctly remembered hitting sumin at 2:30 in the morning very lucky to have made it out to discount tire full warranty on my tires since i hit things quite often fake plastic watering can for a fake chinese rubber plant we're just making due w/ these scraps becuz we've gotten so adjusted to the system the idea of doing anything outside of it seems very very crazy most women do things for attention i'll just wait for these "men" to prove my points they all prove why i do my thing i'm not in the business of proving society's stupidity, they just can't help themselves you know that i love peeing outside anytime we relieve ourselves we must do it in a box? doesn't that remind you of, ya know, death that's one thing i agree w/ taking pride in so constrained that you can do certain things only in a certain place mental illness is all about control of the masses men vs women in regards to bathroom habits i use the men's restroom if i don't feel like waiting on a woman let's just outlaw bathrooms, ag fixes the world's problems fo free! shedding. homogenization. whatever you wanna call it women are trained to act excited for no reason women were always psycho, west civ doesn't help bigger picture people will always be mocked i hope yawl enjoy this visual trance! people wouldn't exist w/out women making $ off social problems w/out ever solving any of em mentally ill people make the best defenders of Christianity pro-life does not exist what does it mean to have a conscience in the first place i don't wanna dehumanize people cos i don't agree w/ their lifestyle choices women can leave textbook comments, i pretty much expect it most comedians are angry n that's fine you don't have to be funny to do comedy, so true! if you care you care i just wish you'd pay more attention identity is all about trying to prove sumin about yourself there is always context behind everything so w/out it life doesn't make much sense not having self-control is not a good thing if you wanted to understand you could just watch my other videos but alas thank you x3 for correcting me esp if you do so in a way that's not haughty of mean-spirited i wish that more people were in the self-improvement camp one of the cool things about making art is creating characters that say things that you can't in the real time living well is not only valuable to you but will inspire others to do the same

i used to work at mcds back in the day everything looks like a prison now, i wonder why they bitch about race cos they lack a personality everything is a carbon copy it seems there needs to be a genre entirely devoted to drug use disorganized schizos are just way more fun self-acceptance is the key to happiness those that think that this channel is for attention clearly don't watch much of it i don't think i need to be concerned w/ not putting out enough content we can't all be flip phone savvy plenty of authentic people have a smartphone so... boring people don't deserve bad things to happen to them the sheep get their sources from the fake news if that were required reading this world would be way different a psychiatrist wrote this one all about medical tyranny not being in a relationship is ideal never expect diddley squat from this world

i really wish i could do take a much longer break from the internet i finally started working on that project, it took me 3 days i'm invading the space of thousands of creatures why come to work if you don't give a fuck about yer job it was good that i didn't go to nashville to see my friend ronnit cos my tire is just about flat haha yawl know how i feel about aircraft all the planes are flying over my head on purpose most don't even half or quarter ass i cleaned a lot in the past 3 days you don't have to be a drunk or a druggie to appreciate sublime but it helps i'm talking about the last time that i got wasted haha ...so that's why i drank alone *CLASSIC ag explanation

he hissed at me earlier i relate to this goose. a lot i will take being devalued over being idealized any day well i guess i'm a threat if everybody likes you, you don't have much of a personality that might mean goodbye, i'm not sure ag has consistently proven how sensitive everyone is animals are funny cos they're not conscious of how they look, humans have the opposite issue ag is made outta sandpaper i tend to offend in more organized settings (sheep) i love the fuck outta public transit i'd do very well in a city utilize what you have, you're wrong if you don't i used to regret not appreciating things enough but looking at everything right now i realize that the problem isn't just me

look at this little goose! small things are just adorable you can't not notice these ugly ass towers it's not just stupid, it's morally wrong bending over backwards to avoid hypocrisy society gave in to smartphone technology to their detriment we never worked for any of this shit society is stupid. this will never change self-approval means that means that you are in touch w/ that God part of yourself my parents didn't listen to me much like i didn't listen to them haha it ain't just about authority figures, it's existential cynical cindy is always right about society tho they will all kill themselves eventually

we are finally doin it this is quite a process yes it's roy orbison i told yawl, music is a religious experience i will not quarter ass! it's about time that i get this done

this song is pretty dumb tho there's more to reggae than smoking pot most of the music made about drugs isn't very good why is doing drugs sooooo counter-culture considering if only people could OD on social media would psych problems be what they are here in the west if we didn't have all this stuff dragging us down documentation woulda robbed me of the glory why steal $ or more valuable items when they could just snag a compact disc i used to stack my cds n they'd get super scratched music was my original religion i also must have a protective shield against becoming a prude i hate how people become so intolerable once they discover religion or sobriety or whatever no smoothie mouth today, i forgot my banana again that's what AMY said should she kill herself funny most will choose the safest direction to take a joke internet junkies don't count sometimes i do consider relapsing i've been putting off working on this project for months music is life n it means a lot to me i used to listen to a lotta music, wishing that i had written it the sheep believe that kurt killed himself w/ a shotgun high on heroin oh yeah, they're flawed human beings i can still appreciate contributions that you made w/out having to agree w/ everything you believe in sharing perspective vs. sharing lifestyle applying whatever you know makes you crazy apparently i have vicarious neuro-plasticity the war of art is perfect for those w/ adhd just a simple shift in your perspective can change everything change is a threat to voluntary depression i've proven enough x that i cannot handle alcohol n cigs if it doesn't work no matter how you do it then just let it go there's way more nuance to life isaac is my favorite worker cos he is masculine intentions are everything, drug use doesn't have to be about summoning spirits n shit even if you do go wrong you will realize it n turn to what's right romanticizing alcoholism every so often more likely to continue down a path of self-denial if i don't think i'm worthy of love n forgiveness i was talking about a harr clip haha yes i call myself honey ag's past life involved a lotta petty theft

it was five seconds believe it or not i used to be way more fragmented i don't recommend smoking a lotta pot these days back in my day we'd have to wait 3wks for shit weed it ain't weed, it's xanax i swear it ain't worth it, things are better when they're simpler they're sooooooo ready to go that was a lot right there the battery is running low i'm so grateful to be what they say is crazy maybe i will eventually get to that point but today's not that day even if it only happens in my head... always bitching about smartphones at some point every hour this world is as real as we've made it out to be i don't think that everybody is _______ they sure love being fooled n they get so mad when you tell em i appreciate the daniel johnston comparison me n bo burham are on the same level when it comes to the social experiment of the internet my keyboard is a prop nothing more on stage pot allowed me to get used to my self-awareness you hate yourself so you're projecting if you don't expect enough of yourself you will expect that of everyone else they don't attempt to understand so they get mad over the same thing i love singing sooooo much i re-realize things all the time maybe i don't want you to like me stop expecting me to be what's in your head you don't have to be schizo to not bathe, my harr looks like shit so i already lost that st. vincent cd that i just bought it's totally dementia worthy i know i lose sumin every five min i finally started that project btw (and found that cd)

let's attempt an actual song this is so cut throat honest, it makes me so sad n so grateful to God that i can get this outta myself even if i'm the only one laughing, at least i had fun i can't wait for you to go away so i can say what i need to say sometimes i'm still bothered by the way that i am but oh well i wonder if it's a sin but the guilt don't help everyone's way to concerned about all the wrong things the why n the how will drag you down thinking about stuff ain't profound, so what are you surprised that i like tori amos i like all the crazy women i finally understood the meaning of that lyric haha it's funny how long i had to listen to the same song/bit/movie scene to really get it how many x must i do the same terrible thing in order to realize that it's terrible i wish i could be what you needed me to be don't be offended by my need to be free it's just the way it is until it's not that way anymore nobody seems to have any intention of knowing themselves and yet another side rant about technology sometimes i wish i could cook n clean n be the thing that you want so bad that you watch porn to get you best believe that i can cry like a damn woman hahahaha i got the empathy part right at least now's the time to empathize cos people are all kindza duragatory terms instead of running away from that part of myself i'm gonna run towards it cos i trust God

no sudden anything, i am such a bad driver not committing suicide is self-care so go me if i know i did the right thing than i don't need your approval self-image is such a thing for a lotta people n it doesn't really mean anything this is not my fave song on the album i haven't listened to this album in over 10yrs i love the way that he sings burn out before you get boring i wish that musicians would just stay on drugs drugs n alcohol are a pretty fun pathway to creativity my finger is healing no matter how nasty it looks i don't have no time to listen to conflicting points of view, was he writing twenty yrs into the future never trust anyone who is obsessed w/ their image n how the world sees em it's sad that so few believe in themselves oh if only i could have jazz friends i am such a bitch tho (when i wanna be alone) did you know that you can learn things on the internet it's fine to do anything i want cos i'm a comedian people aren't just afraid, they are terribly boring so afraid of people speaking ill of them that they won't even put themselves out there twitter is just too demonic for ag insta!spam is already bad enough i need to post sumin i just don't feel like it the general public has thoughts? twitter fully illustrates how stupid the world is this world isn't just bad it's very very stupid i tried to tell my parents that college was a giant ponzie scheme but they still don't believe that they never question anything they're told i will move to the next rock when i feel like it, damnit you'd do far more w/ yer life if you really wanted to make yer ancestors proud not trying to be hostile towards anyone but... in case you missed those videos... i was able to enjoy myself BECUZ i took the time to separate myself from the group social obligations are really annoying i ended up having a good time when i stopped expecting myself to the other empaths flock to me technically we have free will so we are the ones that put limits on ourselves you don't wanna take sumin sumin? kudos pick one: guinea pig vs do what chu want i have never really felt part of sumin so that was quite lovely there are people who still believe in a life outside of technology i am judgmental, that's technically not a bad thing the problem is being hateful if you judge in a positive way nobody seems to mind you gotta be able to pivot in some kinda way i'm forcing myself to do insta! spam as well as a clean open mic, that will be very weird for me haha clean ain't just about not swearing can't do too much conspiratorial shit i can do one clean mic (early) n then one dirty mic (late) i kinda sorta hate comedy haha renard hirsch, one of the best comics in nashville bill collectors, no doubt meow meow meow i am everybody's favorite cos i am fun i leave it to this channel to complain i hope to be constructive n not just whine (forgive me if i do whine at all!) i can be very hard to take n it's too unconventional i'll take a comedian's opinion w/ a sand castle other artists n esp comedians mass consumers dunno how to produce anything of themselves so i don't take them very seriously as much as i trash their subject matter i'd never trash them as people cos i don't really know them i'd never tell a bitch to just go see a therapist, i will always think that making art is better even if the art sucks art is way better therapy than anything they've got on the market i fully support the artist even if i don't agree w/ what they're making i can't expect most people to get that who don't make anything dirty as fuck much like moi do not worry about yer critics, they don't have to be you and they probably don't make shit mass consumers don't have a dog in that fight but a tomagotchi

i actually did it...jalapeno popper thing a ma giggies yawl like that toasted sticker it is possible to do what i say imma do, it just takes me a long time i'm a very complicated person i'm cool n FUCKED UP watch me look at a text msg! i know i'm like a dude i had another copy of this but it is very scratched n i love this cd so much stoner music is kinda dumb but it's still good cheers to that one thing... you can't have self-discipline w/out a sincere desire to be a better person speaking of pride, welcome to sodom & gomorrah month celebrate THE worst of the 7 deadly sins in relation to another one of em i am just speaking of this logically, not trying to shame anybody look at that sky behind me, so dark! why i don't shame people thelonious (car) accepts in 90 seconds and another fall... nobody knows what's gonna happen next *best kept secret on yt

if my parish didn't know that i was crazy already... it's okay not to fit in w/ society i don't like you either, honey i make people very uncomfortable i can tell singing hymns to God w/ my fellow God people is completely different than congregating at the park, fuck this empaths pick up on so much energy it's suffocating i am anti-social but not for the reason that you think why would somebody that hates society be anything BUT anti-social i dunno what Psalm i was thinking of but this is specifically in Romans, Thessalonians n Peter (all new testament) nobody will save you, only God i've spent my whole life thinkin that there was sumin wrong w/ me we ain't gon vibe, honey God STILL protected me from myself in many ways, in other ways He allowed me to fuck up my life so that i would learn i totaled my last vehicle (red chevy aveo, RIP fiona) cos i was being wreckless n irresponsible (running red lights on purpose for example) that part of you that thinks it wants to perish will always be there you know way more about yourself n the world thru negative experiences of course they ain't fun when you're goin thru em ag mixed drink: Holy Spirit + demonic spirit the demons dunno what the fuck to do mental illness will never go POOF! they torment me way more since i made a commitment to Christ it ain't the thing that's the problem i don't need to sell my soul, he's already in me at least the stone roses quit before they started to suck or God forbid got sober annie clark (st. vincent) better not stop drinking the problem w/ artists getting sober drugs prove that our human experience is way more multi-faceted than society can accept all this stuff is coming from the same place 9x outta 10 you don't have to do what they tell you you have to do i never wanted to go to college yes i am mentally ill WE KNOW i've learned so much about myself watching this channel forgive me if it seems that i am propping myself up food should motivate me damnit the same part of me that prevents me from staying on topic also prevents me from being in a successful relationship accept that society wants you to kill yourself n you will be fine if you have a relationship w/ yourself then you have a relationship w/ God, that's really where you start i appreciate your feedback even if it sucks i really wish that this was a joint remember mid-grade weed? MEMORIES! i chain-toked the same way i chain-smoked i talk to myself all the time cos i internalize so much that it has no choice but to externalize itself when i am alone at least we know that these options are available what's right w/ ag: trusting instinct having constant access to unlimited information is not good for society sheep, i am just describing sheep jiddu krishnamurti said that it is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society i don't pat myself on the back for being this way, it's just the way that i am n i accept it n trust God, that's it going the opposite route of society was a conscious decision that i made but i don't consciously choose to be this odd doing what i was told to do just made me wanna kill myself even more (medication, relationships, sex, binge drinking, school) it was not a little bumble bee, amy! west civ will never understand mental illness (too much $ in gaslighting the public) at least we have the same etiquette towards strangers awareness is dangerous ain't it real empaths won't stay on meds, go you! if i seem harsh it's cos society doesn't value itself at all they have never given the right kinda fuck the most dangerous disorders will never be talked about it's okay to be arrogant so long as you know that it ain't a good thing you can't be crippled by sumin that you are hyper aware of but the devil will still meddle thru excessive analysis ie ocd so many nuggets of wisdom that i picked up in AA meetings but too many creeps for me to keep going narcissists are attracted to empaths for various reasons coverts always flock to me in hopes to imitate my compassion but they never can make the cut my mom used to have to put me on a leash when i was a kid cos of my tendency to wander off i belong in a pygmy tribe not here

look at this turtle! why i always run away anytime i go out in public i can't motivate myself to leave the house w/out the social obligation i always feel like a disappointment to people as long as you know where your Salvation comes from you have way better options than feeling sorry for yourself

no ag is not a dendrophiliac but she will kiss a tree a tree will never reject my political views i don't fit in w/ human beings the ones that like me won't stop hounding me social media is voluntarily dumping a buncha total strangers into your head our idea of human experience is extremely limited this world will always be shit, there's no escape from it God is more powerful than all the attempts of His adversary we dunno what's good for us so we ruin every good thing

intrusive thoughts is what they call em ocd can prevent you from getting important things done i've never understood the meaning of relaxation addiction due to affliction the disease they are speaking of is their inability to cope w/ living in this world why i stopped going to 12 step programs can you tell that i am lost haha i guess this is why they suggest getting a gps system such beautiful trees *later on today we will kiss a tree! God will always love you, He just wants you to come back to Him the only One that didn't make a mistake was Jesus God forgives us for being flawed, we must remind ourselves of this often instead of just reading the Bible i yelled at myself instead hello kerry harris! he's on way more billboards now *SPOILER: i'm about to have a flat i hit sumin last night, i remember both hearing it n feeling it the devil wants us to forget our Salvation obsessing about the right thing ain't right why alcoholics/addicts say they have a disease i never seem to have a very good time when i drink

obsessive compulsive thoughts come in multiple forms even positive ones counting calories is a good example of this we're always fighting opposing forces

i'd rather save my ass than save my face grace will never be from this world those things you swear by only seem to do the opposite of what they say anyway nobody has an answer for me so i stopped asking em questions you can't pay anybody to help you figure it out who doesn't have an agenda tho social etiquette is why, amy i'm not one that can just project, sometimes i wish i could but then i remember that it's far better to endure my life might be easier but not in the long run running away will always be the preferred choice for most i do this cos it's fun n important for me i hate the mere idea of fame celebrity is america's caste system seatbelts are a tough one for ag

we're back to cold, black coffee i saved some of that pot of coffee from last night actually damn my tire pressure light just came on in the midst of my affliction i thank God with patience comes appreciation the easier stuff won't teach you anything if i don't cry then what's the point wanting to kill yourself MORE doesn't feel much like medicine make some sense outta this life, that's what i'm trying to do i can't learn n grow taking their shit advice my solutions are better than yours i see what your "solutions" to do ya you don't value your life or anything really i'd rather experience sumin painful than not feel anything at all it's your life/body/mind/voice, EVERYTHING is a choice it's not impulsive actually but a general sentiment waiting for deliverance, knowing there's a reason for this

i just wanna show yawl what a small town is supposed to look like this is the kinda thing they are actively trying to destroy God definitely listens to my prayers that's the record store where i frequent it's almost 2:30 in the morning, i just got outta Church every single one of my jalapeno popper thingamajigs got eaten any finger food will be successful i suck at the stereotypical woman shit just becuz i'm crying doesn't mean that i'm not okay i wasn't sad but joyfully mesmerized i'm crying cos i'm so stoked i found Christ haters of Christianity keep vindicating the whole thing aleister crowley wanted to possess demonic powers n he succeeded in order to truly understand the power of God you must also understand the power that satan has over God's creations thanks to my alcoholism i fully comprehend the fact that the devil is also inside of me energy clash from those that have a demonic spirit people can discount n mock all they want but they are fools i have definitely grown up in regards to my emotions cos i don't give anywhere near as much of a fuck as i used to over dumb shit that service was 2.5 hrs long it didn't rain until later that evening