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odoul's...sleepy time drink drinking a non-alcoholic beer is a sure fire way to pass out earlier than i usually do i mean there's more of a point in drinking actual beer acquiring the taste of beer is all too common when you're a fucking drunk that's a lotta jalapenos they all got eaten! for whatever reason i felt the need to show you this i'm about to make cream-cheese stuffed jalapenos wrapped in bacon hopefully this recipe will be easy enough not to fuck up but we will just see

i stole this hat from a gas station when i was drunk they were right assuming that i was trying to kill myself i had some fun, had to get that self-destruction outta the way if it wasn't fun there would be no appeal i hold close to my heart that shame from my past life what's the point in continuing on if i don't learn n grow a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise i am actually really happy believe it or not even if my life was fucking insane back in the day it's definitely inspirational now i can now safely say that Jesus Christ is Lord blacking out is some kinda resolution haha i don't talk right i know it i misspelled hipocrysy hahahaha God doesn't give a fuck this world is a noose around yer neck i love being labelled insane by sheep, it means sumin extra i'll put that insult in my satchel n use it thank ya you know not what chu do i get such a narc(issist) vibe from a lotta these people unfortunately we must reside w/ these types pity em, since they lack empathy it will stop em in their tracks since they can't give it back, they won't know what to do w/ this energy based on my repoire, i don't anticipate people stickin around you could just forgive me instead but alas

fave thing in the world right here are you an ag superfan bill swerski was correct, bob was one of his superfans before pc culture screwed everyone up snl was fucking hilarious thank you old man, we appreciate chu! i had an amazing soundtrack for my self-destructive years many have a close relationship w/ God n didn't have to debase themselves i had to destroy my life for a bit i can't believe i'm allowed to participate in Church activities eventually imma find Jesus (common thought while shoplifting) i had faith in the midst of self-destructing right now i gotta drink this whole bottle of vodka cos eventually imma find Christ i have the completely opposite reward system i was gonna drive clear across town all to buy a cold brew 40 days n 40 nights w/out coffee cos that's how much i love God amazing how much shit i have complained about nobody taught me about God, i talked to Him on my own volition my parents had a very negative view of church due to a bad experience of my brother i used to collect those little gideon Bibles n never read em i was waiting to water that seed... all you can do is plant the seed, you can't force em to water it disillusion can inspire one to seek God the world falling apart really motivated me to look into religion all that self-destructing led me to standup which led me to Christianity anytime the general public goes along w/ sumin that sumin is typically wrong politically correct means literally incorrect we wait on society to give us a check mark n why my metrics are not of this world good luck putting any kinda limits on me the govt obviously ain't against stealing

the weather machine is at it again just look at that shit over there, this really does piss me off keep God at the forefront of your mind i don't wanna start drinkin again all cos the world is terrible it's okay to be angry bout stuff that warrants rage i pity those that dunno why this is all happening but perhaps their perspective is preferable to mine it doesn't even cross their mind that people could be lying to them no. not in awe just somewhat jealous the whole point is to turn the people on the earth into the devil's army we gotta pray always n forever they can't stop me from praying for em you never know if they will be receptive, it just might take awhile personal ag prayer DON'T STEAL IT it's pretty simple n God knows exactly what it means God speaks to us in our dreams via conscience i'm sure that tik tok filled his head w/ this "crazy" idea i used to be scared of the world ending but it ain't worth salvaging i would rather be God-centered than worried about what's gonna happen anytime i say honey i sound like a homosexual burying head in the sand is YOUR job they only read the Bible to misinterpret Scripture those that run the world read the Bible TOO wait for it... i don't really hate that bitch, obviously upset ag is play mad, just joshing it's annoying when that happens tho don't worry i won't attack that bitch in the grocery store general public will naturally call us crazy before i joined the Orthodoxy i was obsessed w/ the "future" now i just don't give a fuck cos God is our shield the community aspect is what i find so important we gotta be in the tribulation already, man people were already nuts before technology took over the AI won't kill you, YOU will kill you i avoid alcohol cos i used to really struggle w/ that personal responsibility or die addiction is simple possession frantically running around trying to locate a phone charger *most "people" these days vape pens are so bad porn is one of the worst addictions due to the lust/image aspect of it if you can only come thru visual stimulation you might as well just chop yer balls off society has always been demonic, it's just super obvious now i do quotations a lot do indicate that words don't mean much of anything they're focused on the branches, never the root did yawl hear that honk i feel like such a dude people don't wanna face themselves so they're easily susceptible to materialistic bear traps he can do that over there, i ain't gon fuck w/ it sex n violence are so closely associated due to satan's influence rolling up my sleeves to bitch about feminists *oh! the irony? feminism really took a turn for the worst did it not 2nd wave all day, anti-materialism is the right attitude so i agree w/ these feminists somewhat camille paglia was right about a lot i'm listening to kanye's best album i am making bacon-wrapped cream-cheese stuffed jalapenos for my church tonight *that service was amazing n super long i had no idea what i was missing out on glad that i got into the Orthodoxy thru the back door *better testimony DON'T GET ANY SICK IDEAS DAMNIT this is what i'm talking about right here there's no comparison when you go to an Orthodox anything we might know some stuff but so what i kinda agree w/ Catholics on this cos the laymen don't have discernment the book of revelations has too many metaphors that could easily be applied to anything occurring in any era of "history" so it's super easy to control the "christian" population in this way my Bishop has confirmed my Biblical assessments *this is a win just don't idolize or idealize people *you will regret it if you do kanye is a very gifted artist whose "crazy" has advanced his career but also hindered him for the same reason (it's always a double to quadruple-edged sword w/ "mental illness") somebody at Church this morning asked me who bit me i wish i did that when i got mad they're not all ______ convincing you to obsess about identity is part of the problem i know myself pretty damn well you can read books n watch lectures n shit but it's still saturated w/ garbage from people that have an agenda *ALWAYS FOLLOW THE $ we dunno what's gonna happen cos we're not God i really hope i'm wrong about the stuff i think haha love this hat, i stole it from a gas station when i was trashed back in 2010 this control freakery never seems to work in their favor i need to do a white board w/ this information, really i need to simplify it for myself cos visuals works *there's a reason why americans are so addicted to them ya know it just annoys me cos yawl know how i feel about control freaks vulnerable narcissists are the most annoying, they do have SOME self-awareness just no boundaries whatsoever i used to be this way but i grew out of it thru therapy it's up to me to understand my life i can't do all that fambly stuff, i can't even keep up w/ my cat, YOU KNOW WE HAVE A CAT way too many registered sex offenders in my hometown fuck that, we'd be on the run haha Romans 14:23 might shut them up...MIGHT if i don't have faith in it, i probably won't be very good at it OBVIOUS SHIT

thank you for insulting me! narcs don't have self-awareness or self-control it must really suck to be you tho no point in retaliation, yer ass ain't worth it i'd rather create a bit eventually it will mean what i want it to mean everyone's doing this w/out realizing or caring my God endured til the last moment i'll never run outta cheeks whenever i get impatient or intolerant i have to remember the sacrifice that God made for me don't react ad infinitum BE WEIRD do the exact opposite of everybody that's perishing it's better when i sing even if nobody likes it they love their problems n idol worship them i'd rather stay in the fix even if society doesn't understand it it only matters what God thinks if i'm plzing God that's enough for me focusing on what's wrong w/out self-analysis is silly i can't help you out, man keep on doin what will never work i change the tempo cos my brain is outta whack if you're annoyed you probably left if you hit a nerve that means that you're effective when people are so easily pissed off what does it matter i never took that walk n it started pouring down rain so i just made posters in my car

do yawl remember notebook paper this note was left on my car wouldn't it just make sense to park in front of your own house HOA are a buncha nazis at least they used the word please that doesn't look like angry handwriting online insults will only do the opposite of whatever you intend perhaps write the insult down on a piece of paper n i will take it more seriously nobody is making much of an effort n that is the result of internet infantilization it really is the little things that inspire me pascha is pretty intense there is a lotta commitment in my religion, like you have to be Orthodox to be served Holy Communion, you can't just come n get it in some way it's a cult if you're not aware of the manipulative nature of most people, places n thangz you will be exploited at some point there are no consequences for being an asshole i'll just let em make themselves look foolish legit offended. also legit woman. very few people can even explain why they're offended comedians are used to being shit on thanks for the little pebble shit i could diarrhea all over you but i'm a Christian so i'll digress i always regret leaving comments even if they're positive that's my fave powerline right there insults are one of my fave things cos they prove that i am exactly what i say i am

i hate america too, frank a lotta people that i like are probably masons i guess i oughta be more conscious of my hand symbols this is a mason tattoo apparently i guess this just means that we shouldn't put anyone on a pedestal online culture is pretty lame, man covid saved my life n ruined everyone else's every "crazy" person i know did swimmingly well during "covid" i never expected shit from this country remember back in the day when we could lie to ourselves successfully ain't nobody gon fix this mf i tried to warn you, you get what chu get just cos you're right doesn't mean that you're good what is a real evangelical tho when you take everything at face value YOU GET WHAT CHU GET i dunno tho, it's hard to say the star of david stuff is a psych op you work for people w/out even knowing most people are there for the photo op i spy: waffle house if i don't contradict myself mid-sentence... in case you needed a bagel you now know where to go, yo welcome

hyper hyper analytical mode yes i am having this much fun schizophrenia is the most stigmatized disorder for me it's more of a personality disorder than it is a current state state of mind vs. state of being i analyze those thoughts instead of just having them n being crippled by them i always knew that i was a piece a shit when i was debasing myself in my twenties those that haven't gotten to the very bottom of the well have no idea the lengths they can go i can talk to these people way more easily than anyone of my political or religious affiliation there's definitely a link...change physical appearance in order to (hopefully) change state of being imma be in Church all day you know i love my religion if i'm showing up that early, we don't do early my religion is simply the best it definitely sounds like a cult to outsiders haha i am pretty committed, maybe cos i should be committed? handisnax "christianity" vs. 5 star all-you-can-eat buffet Christianity, i'll take the latter it was the bill collector!

i'm sorry you're so gullible wake up every day feeling the exact same way it's fine to have yer routine, man i'm bored w/ everyone but also myself sometimes glad i didn't move to nyc or cali like i said i would i like flying i just hate leaving my house most people will never get to ag level when do they not run away i sound like david byrne holy shit you can get ______ n still hate you jump from rock to rock that's all they do i must seem boring sitting here on the same rock i have always explored my brain how can you not be interested in exploring your brain how can you know any mfing thing if you dunno yourself plenty to learn when you either make stuff or break stuff i know why i self-destructed you pretend to be empowered if i didn't drown from booze, saline or ocean water... i guess i have to stick it out considering how many x God saved my stupid ass hopefully less of the bad thing more of the good thing i used to reside in the TAAKA portion of Hell it's just as well that i went thru all that cos i can explain alcoholism better than anyone can (i've been told that at enough AA meetings haha) i've earned my arrogance damnit

chewing gum is annoying but that's kinda what you're supposed to do w/ it everybody's got their things trying to forgive myself for idiosyncrasies i'll never not be a mess i wish that people w/ clean houses would rub off on me i study people so i can emulate not imitate i lose things so easily multiple x a day, sometimes multiple x an hr i should already be used to it! hopefully you'll get sumin outta this if you understand these things i play the same thing cos it allows me to focus i could never call myself a musician for obvious reasons the point is to make sumin that people understand but esp me but also the tortured soul... if you try to ruin my fun you're a piece a shit i can talk mad shit on this channel but i never get in anyone's face about don't be so scared to try sumin new those that ridicule are jealous everyone judges. so what i understand psychology too much to get offended you can't take things personally or seriously when anyone overreacts if they could see themselves they'd kill themselves fighting w/ everyone around you or nonexistent threats cos you can't just fight w/ yourself somebody recently accused me of being judgmental AF i appreciate feedback no matter what this friend of mine was cherokee n she said that cameras steal yer soul n freaked out when people tried to take her picture and this is why we get in trouble here's more arrogance about my condition if i can't respond in a loving way i don't respond at all i won't respond to people being mean all for the sake of being mean people wanna stay mad n they can keep doing that, they're foolish for it ain't kissing anyone's feet but Jesus i say stupid shit all the time n it is somewhat comical, at least now it is you could be right about the point you're making but if you get offended you're wrong you can correct people w/out having to be an asshole i can't do shit about you getting offended i don't wanna emulate the shit behavior of our society a series of emojis later... i can't do shit for em cos they're too far gone nothin i'm right about is good i'd rather love you n forgive you for being ugly you don't have to accept my love we might just speak again who knows peace out, man they just wanna fight x3 everyone's so tightly wound maybe cos they're just stupid

that sky tho any way the wind blows... don't look at that bird poop! it's not there! that looks like the five oh behind me capitalism gets such a bad rep i tried (and failed) to be a capitalist when dt was prez it doesn't seem to really foster creativity it's the only philosophy that makes room for that potential i hate hypocrisy with such a fierce passion there are way more stringent forms of govt everything is more stable in a place less free choices make people crazy it seems women aren't too happy w/ their choices a lotta things contribute but it's their life ya know i recognize these contradictions yawl you have the freedom...to be lame n boring if you appreciated what our ancestors died for you'd be more interesting since we don't have the same kinda caste system we can do way more hence all the obstacles the most free will be crazy. artists. criminals just pretend you're a leftist... make up sumin that the washington post would promote drugs are just fucking wrong lying to authority figures doesn't count people will adhere to the script every. time mental freedom ain't a thing if only our ancestors coulda possessed a crystal ball... you follow the rules n that's yer problem fuck covid most of those people have taken jabs all their life n given their babies jabs most in EVERY identity group are gullible n dumb those apple watches are so pointless i did wear a mask n i hated it the whole time my mgrs had to yell at me n chase me around the store to get me to put it on, it never became a learned behavior i hate smartphones cos they prove that society doesn't question anything they're spoon fed most people are now internet junkies when comedians only care about not getting cancelled... you dunno what art is for maybe i just have really old skool standards liber sumin...there has to be a place for that degenerate crap just accept that everybody is stupid there's somebody out there who hates this place just as much as i do if i lived in a more patriarchal society i wouldn't be able to do what i'm doing, however i wouldn't be complaining about women anywhere near as much hahaha (i wouldn't be allowed to!) how much less trouble our society would have if they had chastity belts now that everyone's addicted to 7+ things... so many ways to be psychotic in america so grateful that i utilize n appreciate my freedom in a positive way good thing i quit drinking cos i have no desire to fuck anyone people that make bad decisions are easier to control everybody needs to just admit that they are flawed they don't see the technology as a problem restaurant work has made me hate freedom lack of self-control is what "freedom" has bought america soooo lucky to have gotten all my biggest mistakes outta my system in my twenties now i got stories n valuable experiences that can help people that are struggling, oh and i found Jesus really long service tonight

yes, it's fucking zappa women dunno enough about politics i make general statements not individual statements the only position is anarchy there is no grass roots "movement" follow the money ALWAYS question the question if you don't question your motives then you will get taken advantage of yawl are too fucking emotional they can't see the forest for the trees cos they don't smoke em those that are open to drug use tend to be open to the idea that they're being lied to conservatives are not pro life (i'll believe it when i see it) it's easy to be full a shit when you dunno it us shitizens are genetically modified that was a very true statement, i kinda agree america is the stupidest country in the world it must be real squishy when you walk conservatives dunno how to accept that their country has ALWAYS been a lie the cannabis plant has been controlled by israel since the early nineties my hand is healing i voted just to prove that i was right about voting conservatives love blowing shit up i'm pretty sure that they're convinced that they enjoy killing themselves

i can't stress how important it is to know yourself i know i can get in my own way i don't care as much about making them laugh as making them think accept being spit on, it's just the way it is when it's good it's good but when it's bad it's really fuckin bad i don't want normies, art ain't yer thang and this is why the L won the culture war all yawl mfs are addicted to tv/phones/computers/video games so you don't get to lecture me about family shit you don't have to be of a particular religious or political affiliation to appreciate family but it helps somewhat i go to Church to know that people are doin it right the internet is a psych op i've had plenty of conversations w/ liberals, it's possible most will go the safe route cos it's easier conservatives are too freaked out by my existence i'm super tapped into my masculine energy ag can't submit for shit most women don't take the time to understand the chaos inside of them Christians have a sense of humor sometimes "alt comedy" or maybe it just sucks ag can't schmooze for shit their survival instinct is based on their approval rating i want that for them if they want it that bad i can't kiss ass if my life depended on it it's not just a principle thing, it's the wiring so called conservatives suggest going on only fans instead of making art all cos they don't agree w/ it only crayons...all about mental illness

i'm not normal...i think yawl already know amber autry, she's really fucking good it's beautiful watching somebody do what they were clearly born to do i'm definitely not comfortable on stage n i hate the general public what do i have to do, have you noticed this repetition everybody needs proof that they're useful n important n their experience is meaningful this is the truest thing to my soul if i don't do it i'm dead inside the trick is getting it out n being confident enough to keep it up x3 important to know strengths n more important to know weaknesses i am insanely good at being honest n also wreckless sometimes i wish that i hadn't debased myself sorry about that, i can't win all the time i kick myself cos it's not what i want it to be in order to stay in the zone you gotta be somewhat aloof forget i said anything about fallibility it's a weakness to not trust our instinct people need someone totally human that doesn't quit all cos it gets too hard i'll never not be somewhat toxic n problematic i wanna be as good as i can be i don't wanna think about what anything costs nobody seems to acknowledge the things that i've always seen you gotta have masculine energy in order to be a good female comic confidence will get you many places i am somewhat in awe of extroverted people always a work in success...

i love the sound of the rain if i stay a little longer i'm afraid i might kill someone i'd be the same if i had a different _______ ...no i'd still be the same hahahaha this was a regular pass time for me during my adolescence, that's how i got thru it it's called a net for a reason all this stuff proves our predictability it's gotta be somewhat of a self-fulfilling prophecy how bout we just chill, man i want people to have what i don't my parents were total control freaks so i'm the opposite of put together i was willing to waiver normalcy it's a party always i'm always in multiple time zones at the same time i'm explaining how my emotionality brings about narcissism it's important that i get shit like this out i'd give you an edible but you probably ain't cool enough to take it i get angry about the way that things are imagine that shit i feel so big until i feel small i know the fiction of my headspace i ain't immune to this stuff i hate eating, it's my least fave part of life one or two notes amy, that's it if you don't utilize what you have you're just dumb we have so much to be grateful for thank you weather machine semi decent album w/ some good songs so i've been saying for 6mos that i will be doing this

i knew that shit would happen, i promise it was there it's not that serious but still aren't yawl glad i don't sweat the small stuff anymore well some probably wish i would so i could just get on outta here i wanted to nuke the relationship every. time i totally took this dude for granite n i feel bad about all of it i'm happy that he found somebody who can do what i couldn't i wasn't working 24hrs, it was open 24hrs (sns) it took me a year to push him away but it still breaks my heart that i broke his i blame myself for fucking up a good thing but i warned the mf i wish that i didn't have his v card unless sumin happens that i have nothin to do w/... i naturally wander off into the woods i'm a no-dependent i am part of that small % that runs into the street screaming whenever in a relationship depersonalization is not how to do a relationship *with yourself or anyone else you will never be satisfied cos you are not how you idealize yourself the trance! crap is a good segway into what's wrong w/ humanity i never ran away from being fragmented i don't deserve anything but Hellfire happiness is different for everyone i wish that i was still a virgin but alas my initial life forecast was correct i couldn't accept myself for a long time but then i smoked bags n bags of weed... i am my own companion n that's just fine the sheep have destroyed themselves w/ all things involving a screen i get myself off in many different ways i love myself like i'm another person i'm not ruling anything out but i ain't seeking it (and am pretty disgusted by the whole idea) westernites have been trained to never have to wait for anything i'd rather make stuff than live in my little fantasy world women have a knack for depersonalizing which is why the men that do that think they are women the artist is aware of that fantastical side of ourselves every time i do drugs i just think about all my problems sometimes a bitch just wants to me alone the men that i don't scare i just end up pushing away social media is a socially acceptable way to keep tabs on people n essentially stalk them hence following people on insta!SPAM i can't fix society but i can attempt to fix myself it's your responsibility to understand your life decisions if you are w/ the right person they will bring out yer positive qualities love makes you think you can be a completely different person sometimes i wish i could be a typical girl matthew 19:12 can't repeat this enough he who is able to accept it let him accept it it's not difficult anymore tho having to explain this to people is way harder

you can inspire people without realizing just not doin what they're doin is inspiring it's impossible for me to be conventional we still have some shit in common tho the whole purpose of "civilization" is to make us hate each other if you wanna stick it to the man...love x3 love is not love there are different types of love n not just involving sexuality they hijacked the language to manipulate people when did they ever care about actions tho television is the world we would rather live in words don't mean shit, man when do they ever understand the bigger picture ag critiques the critique maybe it could use some windex hahaha i'll take my licks cos i wanna be better at this i don't wanna tower over everybody else so grateful that i know what my purpose is self-knowledge needs to be a thing how many people are comfortable w/ themselves materialism proves how much we hate ourselves there are a lotta things that have contributed to this mess nobody wants to do the work blood sweat n tears...here's an example i sure hope that's healing maybe people are afraid of getting hurt if they put in the work i dunno i've been disappointed in myself way more than other people i tend to destroy relationships i had to repeatedly ruin it to know that i wasn't good at it it's way more painful to not have self-knowledge immediate pain BUT eventual self-confidence it's worth it to get to know yourself good luck trying to get the general public to do shit to help their set of circumstances i kinda sorta hate everyone i need to take my own advice n be uncomfortable on stage i kinda wish that i had known about this earlier in my life but... i coulda just made art instead of all those mistakes oh well, more stories n jokes i guess now that experience of being an alcoholic can help people currently struggling it doesn't matter if they spit on you, they're fucking jealous plenty can talk about the problem but i try to be solution-oriented expecting somebody else to do it is very feminine hopefully i do it right enough x to not land me in Hell i've been to Hell already (i think i mentioned my alcoholism) what will make your spiritual life prosper, focus on that

it is crucial that i continue to do this fuck those people smoothie mouth smoothie mouth smoothie mouth overly sensitive people tend to be full a shit lie so's to deny yourself any criticism take a pill all cos you're uncomfortable why not do this when i drive everybody is some kinda distracted you just sound jealous of the fun i'm having jealousy is a very uncomfortable feeling so it's easier to make accusations i've accepted that i'm dumb (woman) diy bitch DIY all they do is complain raising the vibrational frequency is the point i'm more likely to get sumin done if i give myself more to do create or die, that's why i do this so much making stuff increases your quality of life, this is why people have kids i've had enough confirmation from enough crazy people that i know i'm right about this insults are only reaffirming what i do so we appreciate it everything is an opportunity for growth i know how to accept a lotta negative things they could have it so much better if they'd just ask themselves some questions psychiatrists. i'm talking about psychatrists

so this happened at work today not looking forward to washing this wound somehow a shake glass cut me in 4 different places making milkshakes is literally hands on so i told them to move me to a different station i self-destruct w/out even trying addiction is a form of simple possession everything is speaking to me indirectly actually sports. sex. the show friends so much of the Psalms talk of this vindication knowledge means nothing w/out application Jesus is the example we are supposed to follow we are supposed to be a living sacrifice of God's love i make art for the same reason that sheep have kids the fact that these so called "dinks" rejoice in this title kinda proves that it's a psych op designed to trigger people that think you're selfish if you don't procreate they can't even take care of their pets so why would they be good parents i mean duh if you have a big dog it is selfish as fuck to not have a yard materialism is designed to turn us into the ism of material Jesus had to be the host of God's love since alcohol is mentioned in the Bible i refuse to believe that it's inherently bad i stay away from booze cos i know that i am made weak becuz of it can you prove that porn is consensual not to sound like a libertarian but there will always be a black market i need to be more fascist about sex believe it or not the devil uses stuff in this world to manipulate us into doing sumin terrible for us damnit i missed my chance i need to make a banner that just says CRAZY the main problem w/ all types of addiction the thing itself is not so much the problem as the doors that that thing opens up mass consumers are easily exploited due to their own apathy the sheep take everything at face value many are complicit in these lies n they'd either kill themselves or become addicts if they realized the truth most are a temple of the flourishing devil it's all the same yawl i guess you have to be "crazy" to question this world myocarditis. my dad has used his (flip)phone like 3x n he hasn't changed a wink i just don't wanna be a lab rat, that's all there were they in great fear, where no fear was gullibility + obliviousness about this world i don't know a single person that regrets not taking the V it depends on what your priorities are i guess plzing the general public is not even on the list they will probably just get drunk haha being an american is a lot like being in a coma donald trump proved many points that went over most people's heads (esp patriots) people in jail are way more free than those of outside of it i guess i internalize too much to end up in jail

forgive me if it ain't good, that's well understood every once in awhile i'll pull sumin out that's just fucking gold i'd like to think that it's all worth it nothing is ever a waste of time if you got the right mindset everybody has a point, some are better at making it than others the only thing you can hope for in this world i hope that i live a meaningful life many live their whole lives w/out ever giving a shit i feel the fuck outta every experience sometimes i get jealous of the plebs it must be nice to not think twice (or just the once) therapy over apathy i HATE apathetic people w/ a passion committing suicide doesn't seem to be sumin that an apathetic person would do i always knew i was fucked up even as a kid nope, not autistic america is pagan cos it's run by the star of david people ronnit is from tel aviv n she's celebrating Passover right now paisley (cat) is the only thing coming in between me n my art cats like to interrupt whatever you're doing everything is a learning experience the bathroom videos were really my reaction to society putting up all things unnecessary on the internet ag's solution: showcase real life ag is like a spider w/ eyes all over my head yeah mental illness is a defense reel somewhat i don't have the time to explain everything so this happened yesterday... i have the habit of looking homeless wtf bitch why don't chu have a fork so many questions that people are too afraid to ask me i guess let the man in my head explain... our job is to sit back n take it, writing assessments it's not the end of the world if people think you're weird it won't get you anywhere girlfriend

AC = AI the AI is not your friend tolerance is the best word i can use to describe this culture damnit i forgot my banana that cop is trying to make some $ sitting right there plenty of people spreading the msg on social media, still not enough technology has destroyed everything sorry i keep using the word literally *still a woman "don't get a smartphone, it'll change you" ag said in 2007 it's Holy week! you say cult, i say commitment i wish that my church was like a 12step program God placed me in america to study west civ if you have an issue w/ me you probably fall into at least three of the categories of people i complain about so recently somebody tried to get smart w/ me on rumble... people can't communicate due to the language being too complicated should i start identifying as a question mark i used to be obsessed w/ bdpd in my attempt to understand myself i ended up understanding america

yes it really looks this crazy back when i started at steak n shake my harr was dreading itself one of the downsides of doing this... the responsibility of the artist i'm very slovenly we call this depersonalization disassociating is more fun than real life scrunchie up close n personal healthy vs. trying to impress the world this obsession w/ approval n appearance have led us to this cos it ain't coming from a good place these chicks are beautiful but they can't see it every artist is mentally ill the sheep always wanna tell non-sheep what to do sheep go along w/ whatever society wants being a weirdo has its' perks however... either devalued or idealized so... my church has the best that the sheep have to offer i get it from their perspective it's possible to live yer life w/out a smartphone you can't find what you ain't lookin for i'm sure they still have bowling leagues the major problem w/ talking to people brainwashed by patriotism you're lucky to cross off 3 boxes at least i can cross off the empathy box of course people gon be junkies i know this shit is redundant, congrats if you're still here you have to have the mindset of a man to get shit done women can organize shit that's pretty much it i might wanna hit this car trying to parallel park i can only imagine why they sub n then unsub to non-religious people all religions are cults n to religious people EVERY religion but theirs is a cult this observant nature of mine keeps me from boredom alright going to church now, goodbye vortex

yes it's still kanye alcohol has an amazing i don't give a fuck effect man i miss blacking out it's nice to not remember anything so much self-control to not throw a milkshake today the last time that i threw a milkshake... i never showed yawl the shirt, i'm sorry :( my fuse is incredibly long but... self-control is a very valuable thing (recounting the last milkshake that i threw) i shoulda been fired for throwing a shake glass at the wall one of the perks of working at a place where most people walk out fast food is the american way there are plenty of reasons to be healthy most people are in the don't give a fuck class my last name is gross, so it's okay to be disgusted if you had met me back when i was an alcoholic... shoplifting is one helluva rush now's the time to steal shit i really hope it ain't pancreatitis if you are what you eat, then americans are total shit the sheep will never care about what we care about most dunno how to pivot the main problem w/ democracy/capitalism a lot of this is a psych op insecurity is at an all-time high inability to take criticism is a form of laziness maybe i could raise children on a spaceship if i got pregnant i'd probably go to mexico actually the only way i'd get pregnant is if i relapsed i am so excited about this album i made a beeline for the record store after i got outta work today that's annie clark one of my personal heroes now i have everything by st. vincent i collect crushed cans, eventually i will do some massive art project imma try to do sumin w/ america's trash *feminists, where ya at (online, amy ONLINE) the lighting is always terrible but hey it's all about the mystery also the red jacket... if i grew up catholic i'd probably do the same thing back in my liberal college days i supported the lgbt stuff, but not anymore cos i've witnessed what that support has done to society i also special ordered it from the record store i don't take pride in much we will save annie from Hell if that's the case imma put up this kanye album art somewhere in my garage probably next to tupac who is my fave rapper of all time if you didn't know i am a very nonchalant person, others would assume that i am being cavalier but i don't mean to be obviously probably not a racist but call me whatever you want, man

baptized 2 years ago i waited 36years to get baptized you're supposed to age people really will compete over anything it's pretty bad when a kid is more receptive than their elders women are everywhere n sometimes they have a penis not today, thelonious (car) i hate that my "misogyny" is true the reason why stupid women stay w/ really bad men i really hate those w/ an agenda if they didn't project they'd off themselves if you wanna follow the rules just be a muslim at least muslims practice what they preach jews are cool w/ genocide so... jews don't believe in Hell, according to ronnit my go-to for jewish information at least she has self-awareness *she texted me telling me she missed me so we talked on the phone for awhile why am i complaining about people driving slow in the fast lane *sometimes i don't need the man in my head to correct me

everything is getting torn down n replaced w/ way uglier shit that's my Church right there, my actual home what the fuck have you done w/ yer so called freedom this whole time you gotta build not expect progress = total shit the irony really is just ridiculous if you live long enough you'll do what you swore you'd never do i shouldn't a said that passed out from a heroin overdose no no no mule day was like a month ago amy there's more culture in the south cos of the confederacy everyone's a snob about where they live there's absolutely nothin goin on in the suburbs at least in the country it's the fuckin country cities are nice cos you can be anonymous the suburbs are the worst of both worlds more personality in a small town the boring ass american famblies love the burbs not everybody in america is doing it wrong too many fold when it comes to a lotta shit that's bad for em actually the tv is bad due to all the demonic influence but the people's dependency on it is a way larger chunk of the problem whatever spiritual sentiment we had has been usurped by materialism "crazy" leftist identity groups can set fire to shit, what's funny about this is that i could totally pass off as one of those based upon my questionable gender alone